Danial Jaafar 🇲🇾

The Malays I met are walking contradictions. Or maybe they just give off this "I deserve more than another typical Malay" vibe. Or maybe I am assuming such because I think I deserve more than the typical Malay lady whose favourite pastime involving any Malay romcom on TV 3, Astro channels. Or just so happened the Malays I met think too much about the uncertainty that is the future. That it paralyses both the Malays I met and know, and I. It pisses me off that I am more troubled by this petty problem as compared to World crisis. Listening to love songs got me riled up and all worked up. Listening to news... let's leave it at that.

Just a barrage of quotes. Oh what a tangled web we weave, When first we practice to deceive. -Walter Scott - It is better to write for your self and have no public, than to write for the public and have no self . -Cyril Connoly- How people treat you is their karma; how you react is yours  -Wayne Dyer- Death ends a life, not a relationship - Mitch Albom- What was silent in the father speaks in the son, and often I found in the son the unveiled secret of the father -Friedrich Nietzsche- The minute people fall in love, they become liars -Harlan Ellison-

"Perempuan itu sungguh luar biasa peliknya. Baru diperlakukan sebegitu rupa, terus kejam hatinya tertutup untuk pemuda lain. Sedang yang pemuda, menggagahkan diri juga untuk meluahkan isi hatinya, perasaannya kepada perempuan. Dikorek segala isi, diletak elok atas perhiasan. Dipersembahkan pula kepada perempuan. Apa? Perempuan itu punya hak untuk menolak? Ya, sudah tentu perempuan itu punya hak untuk menerima atau menolak isi itu. Tapi, cuba kau bayangkan si pemuda itu kalau sudah beberapa kali ditolak. Aku tidak mahu membicarakan tentang perempuan itu. Cukuplah semua orang sekarang memperjuangkan kesejahteraan wanita, memperkasakan mereka dengan ilmu, harta dan pangkat. Mari sini dengar bicara aku tentang pemuda-pemuda yang ikhlas dalam hubungan mereka dengan perempuan-perempuan dalam hidup mereka. Apa itu? Kalau sudah ikhlas kenapa harus diharap balasan perasaan yang serupa daripada perempuan? Ah, itu yang aku nantikan. Soalan itu. Kau dengar sini, dan kau lihat setiap kat...

Kelihatan dia seperti lena, matanya terkatup rapat. Tiba-tiba sahaja matanya terbuka. Kalau itu merupakan babak dalam cerita seram, sudah pasti menjerit audiens di panggung. Kedengaran degup jantungnya berdetak lain rentaknya. Bukan rentak ketika kau berdebar-debar teruja, berdebar-debar gemuruh. Rentak detak degup jantungnya itu seperti diamuk King Kong Pulau Tengkorak! Marahkah King Kong itu? Atau sekadar keliru di mana hilang Ann Darrownya? Kemungkinan di benak fikirannya. terproses segala kata-kata yang didengar, dibacanya, dan juga segala kata-kata yang dibalasnya sejenak tadi. Mungkin sekarang ini sedang dia membuat post-mortem. "Adakah kata-kata itu benar?" "Perlukah aku berkata begitu tadi?" "Adakah si polan itu, si polan ini mungkin dapat menggapai dan merasa isi kata-kata aku itu?" dan berbagai lagi soalan probing terhasil di meja mesyuarat benak fikirannya. Sekian lama begitu, akhirnya terlena juga dia, setelah penat berfikir. Sedangkan, a...

"Mende-mende pon, mu workout je Danial. Doksoh care ke lain." Yang tu je Adib duk cakap kat aku sepanjang cuti baru-baru ni. Yang mana, aku sebenarnya bersetuju sangat. Dah berapa tahun aku start benda alah ni, tapi result biasa-biasa je. Aku memang perlukan keazaman luar biasa, iron willpower kata orang Kerteh. Dulu, Adib ada bagitau, it's 20% workout, 80% diet. Semenjak dia duk suruh aku buat Tabata, dia dah up-kan kepada 30% workout, 70% diet. Bagi aku, masalah aku diet, tapi apa-apa pun, aku rasa aku kena rajin gi gym balik. Come what may. Kerja sucks ke, heartbroken ke lol, duit takdak ke, pi gym jugak.  Matilanak! Detik-detik menggedik aku nak pakai singlet yang berakhir dengan sunburn teruk. Kahkahkahkah! Aku syok bila ada bestie aku Adib ni. Mamat ni suka push aku to the max dan dia ada power of persuasion bila mai bab workout. Macam masa kat Tioman baru-baru ni, 3 hari straight aku buat tabata walaupun hari ke-2 aku cuma buat 2 cycles dan ...

Taking place at a beach, after an intense 4 cycles of 8 sets Tabata, three best mates were lying flat on their backs, totally drained of energy. Akmal broke the silence after a while, "Best benornye owp, duk kat pula (pulau) ke, patta (pantai) ke. Tenang pelek (pelik) ." "Pelek! Sikek (sikit) !" Hanie making fun of the Terengganu dialect used by the boys. "Hahahah, nganying (perli,menganjing) molek semek (perempuan) sorang ni. Mu tau la le ni gane aku ngan ye sokmo." Akmal went on to reach up to Hanie to playfully pinch her nose. "Hahaha, bior ke die la. She finds our Tranung amusing la tu kot. Anyway, ye doh, dekat ngan alam gitu aa. Tapi zaman le ni, payoh gok nok wat keputusan gitu. Duk kat kampung ke, pula ke patta ke. Dok cukup duit kerja sini." Ikhwan commented. "Adok duit pon boleh hidup je, Wang. Atas kita, nok kejor mende sementara hidup. Masing-masing ah kot." Akmal trying to remind Ikhwan, not everything is abo...

Second day. I was expecting it to be tougher than day 1, because I am currently away, on leave to Tioman! You know how it's like nowadays when people go on vacation. Snapchat, Instagram, Twitter, Facebook will be flooded with new posts. As much as I'd like to post up pics on my Instagram and Twitter, I chose to send pics to my two friends back in JB. Well, technically only 1 did receive because in spite of the 3G connectivity here (super fast) I can't send or even receive pics. Somehow only 1 picture did go through to the mainland LOL. I found myself busy talking, fooling around with my buddies here, taking pics for myself, and sleeping after reaching my room. I even did some reading. Having socmed in my life dictating my every move is rather suffocating. I found myself to be on my toes all the time. And I'm just talking about myself. Pretty sure everyone else has different experience with socmed. Socmed has its purpose of connecting people. That's exactl...

Cinta aku kepada islands and beaches umpama cinta seorang kelas Kapal kepada pelayan yang dikunjung kelasi itu setiap beberapa bulan sekali.  Cinta dia itu, membuak-buak dapat berjauhan. Tapi, entah cinta entah nafsu. Tapi, adakah cinta selalu ditemani nafsu di belakang nya? Bukankah cinta itu nafsu?  Tinggalkan sebentar soal cinta nafsu ini. Aku tengah nak cakap pasal islands and beaches ni. Aku ibaratkan islands and beaches seperti pelayan yang lama tak ketemu kerana di islands and beaches ni aku rasa dilayan baik oleh semuanya.  Tenang itu rasa agung yang aku kecapi. Lebih-lebih lagi bila malam aku terbaring atas kerusi malas, atau lagi malas aku terbaring sahaja atas pasir pantai itu. Sambil terbaring mata aku terpukau melihat siling alam pada waktu malam. Di islands and beaches. Siling yang aku nampak di islands and beaches, tidak pernah tidak cantik. Bintang bintangnya banyak, ada biru, kuning, sedikit ungu, jingga. Campuran warna itu member...

For argument's sake, my blog here does not really count as social media. Plus who are we kidding? Millenials nowadays use Tumblr. I don't even know what it is for. So, blogging at Blogger, is rather ancient and outdated. And to be honest, I did check my twitter on the my mobile Chrome, I was checking the traffic on PLUS highway southbound. Earlier today there was a terrible road accident involving a lorry, that blocked one lane so you could imagine how bad it was. Anyway, yeaaa, I was on twitter just for some good stuff, not to tweet and rant and babbling nonsense. So, let's move on to my day 1, living offline. I was fidgety. While waiting for my doctors, I found myself unlocking my phone, swiped it right, left, before opening Whatsapp and started chatting up every single friend on the top of my chat list, more often when my phone was quiet. I would have likened this to drug addict's shaking hands and red eyes (that's usually the common withdrawal symptoms I hea...

It has never failed to amaze me the fact that the current, trending men's hairstyle - the pompadour, uppercut, undercut whatnot-cuts, were the thing back in the '50s! Either men have become lazy to invent crazy whackshit hairstyles, or we have come to terms with the cycle of life. To be frank, I was gonna say circle of life, thanks to Lion King's song, the circle of life okay besides my point just now, back to the '50s. I think I did mention in my post before this that I don't have the knack to make a good, catchy opening, didn't I? Well, the paragraph above has just further confirmed it. What I was gonna say in this blog post, is that I have decided to get back with my blog, no compromise and no sharing with other social apps. Just me and my blog. Well, back then in 2007, I did have my blog and facebook but it's a little bit different this time. I just deleted all the social media apps on my phone, and deactivated my facebook account. May seem drastic to...

Kau pernah rasa satu ketenangan yang ganjil sekali? Lain macam punya tenang. Tenang yang selalu orang putih cakap, the calm before the storm? Jadi, akan adakah ribut selepas satu fasa ketenangan yang baru aku rasa ini? Aku sudah beberapa kali melalui fasa ketenangan ganjil lain macam ni. Biasanya, selepas sesuatu malapetaka (calamity) yang berasal dari tempat kerja atau pun bersifat peribadi. Kiranya, memang satu lumrah alam, selepas ribut, akan tenang. Jadi, di sini aku nak tanya, kenapa perlu aku takut untuk hidup bila 'ribut' tu datang?