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Monday, October 20, 2014

Tema Hari Ini

Adapun, temanya pada hari ini ialah kekecewaan.

"I feel disappointed by your action. I did not expect that coming from you"

Dead silent. Tak pasti macam mana nak respond terhadap kenyataan macam tu. One thing for sure, he screwed up. Kata budak-budak baru nak up - terfaktab.

"Yes, I am fully aware that you are disappointed. There is nothing else that I can do about it. I was planning to see you the next day but you were away for the whole week. So, that's the reason I am here the first thing in the morning. I can only say that in the future, I will not do the same mistake again and be more careful."

Panjang. Tapi itulah sebenar-benarnya.

"Nothing I ever do can erase that mistake I made. But give me the chance to redeem myself. Words - are the only thing I am able to give you. And a second chance - is the only thing you can give me to prove my sincerity."

"Alright, we're good."

Aik, macam tu je?


Kecewa aku kerana satu makhluk, akidah kita boleh tergugat.








Wednesday, October 8, 2014

Menulis

Sejak kebelakangan ni, aku dah rajin membaca buku-buku yang baru aku nak baca setelah lama terbeli. Terbelinya buku-buku tu, adapun sebab pada ketika dan saat itu, aku memang tertarik dan bersemangat nak baca. Tapi semangat tu, kebiasaannya umpama tahi, mula-mula panas, lama-lama dah sejuk.

Itu bukan pokoknya. Pokoknya, aku berjaya melawan nafsu malas (sloth?) untuk membaca. Membaca. Pabila aku membaca, dan benar-benar membaca untuk aku dan bukan kerana A semata-mata, feelingnya, lain sikit. Seolah-olah aku cuba berempati dan berada di tempat penulis. Kalau ia sebuah cerita, cuba aku berada di latar tempat itu. Kalau ia sebuah pandangan penuh hujah-hujah, cuba aku fahami kewarasan dan isinya, bagaimana si penulis boleh sampai mencoretkan penulisan itu.

Menarik amat.

Yang paling menarik, apabila kau baca tulisan mereka yang sudah lama meninggalkan dunia ni. Seolah-olah, mereka masih bernyawa, berada di hadapan kau dan menjadi narrator, seperti Gordon Freeman dalam cerita-cerita wayang Hollywood.

Kalau kau mahu orang anggap kau masih ada dan hidup, kau tulislah banyak-banyak. Semua yang baik hendaknya. Baru orang ingat kau yang baik. Bukan yang sebaliknya. Lagipun, manusia suka yang baik-baik di mata sahaja.

Seperti Shakespeare menulis yang indah dan baik untuk kekasih hati, dalam Sonnet 18.


Shall I compare thee to a summer's day?Thou art more lovely and more temperate:Rough winds do shake the darling buds of May,And summer's lease hath all too short a date:Sometime too hot the eye of heaven shines,And often is his gold complexion dimmed,And every fair from fair sometime declines,By chance, or nature's changing course untrimmed:But thy eternal summer shall not fade,Nor lose possession of that fair thou ow'st,Nor shall death brag thou wander'st in his shade,When in eternal lines to time thou grow'st,   So long as men can breathe, or eyes can see,   So long lives this, and this gives life to thee.


Damn, son...



Tuesday, September 9, 2014

Parenting Done Right

I gotta say, I am not embarrassed to admit that I had tears streaming down my cheeks as I watched this video.



source: Huffington Post

Parenting done right.

Apparently it was Children's Day so that explains the presents. I thought if it was a birthday celebration, surely there would be food. Anyway, that is not the point. The point is, this boy, after opening up the first present and reading the card, could still be brimming with happiness and joy even though he just received a wooden chopping board, instead of an iPad or a tablet. The shape of the board does look like it could be an iPad or tablet. But this lovely child appreciates it as it is a gift from his parents.

Then comes the second present, I was already choking with tears, seeing the boy glowing with happiness after seeing that box in the shoebox...and burst into tears, feeling grateful for the unexpected, pleasant surprise...pleasant seems to be an understatement, I reckon welcoming is more like it.

TT____TT

Meanwhile a boy his age, somewhere in the big, developed cities is throwing a tantrum for having only a Samsung Galaxy S5 instead of a new iPhone 6..

To be fair, the parents have promised him last year that they will get him an iPhone 6.


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On another note, it is my 27th birthday today.

Another year, hopefully wiser.
If I am not getting any wiser, do forgive me for I try. Believe me, I do.




Saturday, September 6, 2014

Complement

Ye, saudara-saudara, saudari-saudari sekalian. Ada pun "complement" ini tiada menyerupai "compliment", walau bunyi sama.

"Sounds like me but it's not me," kata si Complement.
"Well, sure sounds like me but maybe it is also not me," balasnya Compliment.

*Garu kepala*

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Bangun Subuh. Baca buku, online news, artikel, Quran, kadang-kadang. Lepas tu, ke dapur, masak breakfast. Breakfastnya bukan tipikal masyarakat Malaysia yang dah mendapat kedudukan no.1 dalam Asia Tenggara....sebagai negara paling obes, hehehe. Cereal + Low fat milk + Pisang atau Telur 2 biji, roti whole wheat. Yeahh, gaya hidup ideal.

Lepas makan, rehat-rehat tengok TV. Basuh pinggan mangkuk kuali sudu sudip. Bersihkan dapur. Sampah penuh? Tak, ok let it be. Ya, pergi buang. Sapu-sapu sikit. Hmm ok aa. Buka freezer, tengok stok. Ok, tak perlu dah nak keluar untuk grocery shopping. Rasa-rasa tak ke, rasa tamak ke, jom keluar pergi AEON Big Tun Hussein Onn.

Dalam jam 11, 12, mandi. Rehat-rehat. Masak lunch. Grilled chicken with sliced tomatoes, mushrooms and greens, eaten with lebanese bread. Dapur tu tempat utama dia. Katanya masa belajar dulu, "Kitchen is my safe haven."

Melayari internet; facebook, twitter dan blog. Tengok (read: stalking) perkembangan hidup kawan-kawan. Ada yang rapat, ada yang biasa-biasa, ada yang lama, ada yang baru. Hmmm...

Dah solat apa semua, pukul 4 lebih dah. Siap-siap aa pula, nak ke gym. Dulu ada member baik sekali, siap tolong ajar bagai. Sekarang, member dah balik kampung, for good. "Takpe lah. Ade la sebabnya tu" setiap kali, memujuk hati.

Sebelum balik rumah, timbang berat. Ohsem!! jerit dalam hati. Jerit kuat-kuat, nanti kena label gila.

Balik, oh dah ada orang kat rumah. Okay la. Borak-borak. Malu pun ada. Heh. Lepas tu, mandi, bersihkan diri. Lepas Isyak, dan layan TV sekejap, masuk bilik. Tengok-tengok sekeliling. "Ada jin ke hantu, takdelah mundane sangat..." perangai gila dia naik balik. Baring atas katil, terkebil-kebil tengok lampu.

Lelap.

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Kau takkan tahu rasa sedap kalau takde makanan yang hideous rasanya.
Kau takkan tahu terang kalau tak pernah bergelap.
Kau takkan tahu penat kalau kau tak pernah berehat.
Kau takkan tahu kejayaan, kalau kau tak pernah jumpa kegagalan.
Kau takkan tahu rasa senang, kalau tak pernah rasa susah.
Kau takkan  tahu rasa hidup, kalau kau tak pernah mati, walau sekali pun dalam hidup.

Macam mana nak mati?

Yang itu, aku tak boleh nak cakap.

Setiap satu rasa melengkapkan satu sama lain.

Itu, dalam bahasa Inggeris, complement.

Sunday, August 31, 2014

Lucy Experience

Lucy. They used Scarlett Johansson well to attract the audience but I am not sure if anyone can really appreciate the movie for its content (albeit ridiculous most of the times but plausible...) and not for Scarlett and Morgan Freeman.

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I have always thought that when you see things differently now, than you did some time ago, be it few days, weeks, months, or years ago, that you have gained a newfound wisdom. I am talking about wisdom but in Lucy it is all about brain capacity, the cerebral capacity to be exact. But in Lucy, as she is depicted to have access to more than 10% capacity, Lucy seems to be nonchalant about trivial things. Things like, auditioning, having pointless fun, and pleasure.She seeks for more, to explore more of the unknown. It's like a thirst that can never be quenched, instead make you feel thirstier. That, I see as wisdom as well. Even though some people may argue that having more wisdom makes someone more modest or even humble, but does being modest make you not wanting to know more?

Maybe yes. Perhaps upon the realisation that you have reached another level of wisdom in life has subtly made you aware that there are tremendous things in life that will never be uncovered by just a person. And since no creature is immortal in this life, it is futile to be after all those knowledge.

There is this idea in Lucy about living things reproducing to pass on the information, knowledge to the next offspring because they can't stay immortal. I would like to go on rambling about information and knowledge but I am afraid I will, as usual, sidetracked. So, let's park that one in Danial's parking lot (meaning K.I.V).

So, being mortals, gonna die anyway, why seek in the unknown? What's the use of all that? Well, in Lucy, Morgan Freeman (LOL) said that you can pass the knowledge to the next generation. That's why all the living things reproduce. Bacteria asexually reproduce and pass on the genetic information that confers their generation to be resistant to the most potent antibiotic to their ancestors, but no longer to them. Humans, copulate, have kids that take after them or their predecessors, and learned the wisdom and knowledge from the older generation. Yeah I know, extreme comparison, bacteria and human. I thought I would just show at a microscopic level, it is the same with us, human. Afterall, we humans are multicellular organisms, originating from one cell; an ovum fertilised by a sperm, forming that one cell, zygote. The beginning of us all, biologically speaking.(Well, in some cases 2 ovums and 2 sperms)

It amazes me to no end really. Lucy has re-awakened this, epiphany (if I may say) that I once had. The beauty of life, so to speak. How at the most cellular level, we have been programmed to be immortal though we are mortals. We die at the end of the day. As an individual, all of the living things die. But I see those as just vessels, the contents live on....
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 I don't think this is making any sense so I better stop right now. Perhaps it is not time yet to go on another level up.






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